By Nell • Published: 24 Aug 2020 • 12:43
I STARTED having difficult or should I say different thoughts at a young age that at the time seemed ‘normal’ to me as I knew no different … now looking back I know I was definitely wired differently.
I can clearly remember back to being in school and sitting in class and drifting off into my own world … next thing I know, I had one of these drawing compasses in my hand digging my initials into my thigh until I drew blood, I clearly remember the feeling of freedom, control and satisfaction.
Odd, I know, but true!
I vividly remember walking home from school at about 13 years old and having visions of me running across the train tracks and what would happen if I did, would I hurt myself? Would I die? Would I be missed? What would happen?
I didn’t know that other people thought like me, and that the thoughts that were running through my head were not right.
In this last year, I have finally learned to manage my condition alongside medication. Sometimes changing from one medication to another but also becoming more relaxed about its changes as I get to know what they mean and know that (most of the time) I can control them. So here’s what I’ve learned:
Love Ms Bipolar x
msbipolar@euroweeklynews.com
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After travelling and living around Europe, Nell landed in Spain and absolutely loves this country. She likes to write about positive things and covers international positive news. It´s all about positivity, with Nell.
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